three o'clock and i'm still awake
tryin' to decide what's real what's fake
heartache, highstakes; that's what's real
but all you have to say is how i feel
and i think it's surreal how you try and conceal
your "love" for me but hiding won't heal
as i look in your eyes i see the sun rise
the blue skies, but questions arise
the "who's" the "what's" the "how's" the "why's"
why me? why this life?

there's too many lies and not enough truth
not enough wisdom in all this youth
this culture's a joke, immature, uncouth
we've all lost the drive and lost the pursuit
of finding joy each and every day
as we each go our own seperate ways
and i keep on acting like it's all okay
but it's not cuz i got this nasty flavor caught
in my mouth like a knot in my stomach
gettin' the wind kicked outta me, like a brick in the windshield
a secret revealed, a stab wound unhealed
like havin' a sword but not having a shield

i thought you were my shield my source of strength
like putting a fresh coat over worn out paint
but now my heart's captured and you were the bait
i cannot escape, haven't tried yet but i know i can't cuz i'm in a trance
my heart hasn't done this kind of dance
like this sea at my feet, an ocean of bittersweet
memories and it's easy to see
that i'm only happy with you hand in hand
i've gone as far as i can go, done all i can

so i take a deep breath as i stand at the door
and i knock and i wait and i wait some more
on this empty shoreline, wishing you would be mine
but i can read the signs, i've already had to redefine
what i know about you about love about long ago
i've been through the pain, i've walked in the rain
as i try to maintain this smile on my face
trying to erase, all my doubts
i'm out of place, but i'm still giving chase, i know i'll never catch you
unless you let me...


(to be continued..)